For a third time we decided to add to our family. Each time we've
decided to add to our family it took time; two years for Kendal, and
half a year for Peter. It was no different this time, but when months
turned into a year my hopes fell again. We kept going, but to be honest
the second year was a roller coaster, in which I tried my best to
convince myself it just wasn't going to happen and I would be fine if it
didn't. As we rounded on two years we felt it was time. Time to decide
would we pause give ourselves a break, or would we just be done. With a
lot of thought we decided to give it to this summer and be done. I began
looking towards the future for myself. I applied for a part time job
and if that didn't work out I was going start a preschool. However as
per the norm God has his own timeline for us in life. Late May came and I
wasn't convinced being late and feeling icky meant pregnancy. (I'd had
the same thing happen countless times before never resulting in
anything.) However, we were heading to Disneyland in early June so I
felt it would be dumb to do Disney and all its awesome rides if I was in
fact pregnant. I was shocked to see a positive pregnancy test. To be
honest it took some time getting used to the idea we were having another
child, when I'd spent the last year convincing myself we wouldn't get
to, and the last month planning a baby less future. I cancelled my job
application and felt bad I wouldn't be able to do a full preschool with
Peter since I would have to take off near two months in the middle of
the school year when the baby comes.
As usual we kept the news to
ourselves even though I was convinced me skipping all major rides and
acting off would tip off my family at Disneyland. But we had other fun
distractions so I got away with it. We told the kids just after I was
twelve weeks along. It took a few minutes to sink in for Peter then he
was excited. Kendal was full of questions and skepticism (probably
because we've told her for two plus years we may not have another
child.) Once the questions passed Kendal was beyond happy. Peter keeps
hoping with each appointment I go to the baby will come back with me.
He's also offered to share his toys and underwear with the baby. Kendal
loves to talk to my belly and tell the baby it will be so cute (She's
really been hoping for a sister; Peter a boy).
We told family in the following weeks and are letting the news slowly leak out till the gender is revealed.
This
pregnancy has been my roughest so far. Kendal was a no big deal, and
Peter I moved on from sickness in my second trimester; however this time
I've had more sickness, and have felt a lot more pain than either
previous pregnancy. Plus my sciatic nerve is giving me a run for my
money.
It's funny I've written for this post three times. My first
thoughts were put down in mid spring. I was expressing woes and the
fact that we were leaning towards being done. It was an emotional post and I had a
hard time with it's content. I was planning on adding to it as we made
our decisions final and mapped out the future. My second edit to the post was the initial reaction when I found
out that I'd gotten pregnant. In the post I expressed my, Joy, shock,
and initial thoughts on our unexpected turn of events.The final edit is
what's written. It's long, but I want it as a part of our story. It's
memories to be shared and treasured. We are pretty definite this will be
our last addition to the family. We've looked back on all that we've
gone through to get to this point, and feel good with our decision that
this will be our whole family. We are truly blessed and grateful we have two
great kids so very very happy to have another one on the way!
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